The first time I read this poem was during my SATs subject test, literature. And I liked it so much that I remembered the title and made a note to myself to read it every now and then and try to come up with new interpretations. I've always liked this poem even though I was never able to fully interpret it enough to suffice my contentment. I just read it now and slapped my forehead because I just realized that I've been reading this kind of material all semester long during the fall. Hell, I never paid attention to who the was author until now and I'm like, "Who doesn't know John Donne?" His metaphors are so unconventional but so intriguing. English 250A was a real challenge but gosh, it was a great class. The things I realize at 4am.
Blasted with sighs, and surrounded with tears, Hither I come to seek the spring, And at mine eyes, and at mine ears, Receive such balms as else cure every thing. But O ! self-traitor, I do bring The spider Love, which transubstantiates all, And can convert manna to gall ; And that this place may thoroughly be thought True paradise, I have the serpent brought.
'Twere wholesomer for me that winter did Benight the glory of this place, And that a grave frost did forbid These trees to laugh and mock me to my face ; But that I may not this disgrace Endure, nor yet leave loving, Love, let me Some senseless piece of this place be ; Make me a mandrake, so I may grow here, Or a stone fountain weeping out my year.
Hither with crystal phials, lovers, come, And take my tears, which are love's wine, And try your mistress' tears at home, For all are false, that taste not just like mine. Alas ! hearts do not in eyes shine, Nor can you more judge women's thoughts by tears, Than by her shadow what she wears. O perverse sex, where none is true but she, Who's therefore true, because her truth kills me.
This winter
break is too long.
Haha UC suckers and high school kids.
I love college life. CSULB is my
school.
Alpha Phi Omega is my fraternity. I’m sick of
Alhambra/San Gabriel and miss LB. I miss my
bros.
I’m driving down to Torrance
tomorrow to hang with Tasha.
Hopefully I’ll hang with Peggy and Shanna this weekend. I'm visiting LEO’s meeting on Tuesday.
Hopefully I’m going to Palm Springs
with Tania and Ria for Tash’s party thinger. I kinda want a drink. Hopefully I'll have lunch with Decelaine one of these days...! Annah comes back from Texas. More spontaneous outtings. Disneyland on the 26th with Tasha, Yewande, and other cool people! Like The Beatles, I get by with a little help from my friends. Peace out =]
Welll, I
was just cleaning out my room and decided to take a break and write something
on this old thing of a journal. I haven’t written a REAL entry in a long time.
I guess things have been okay. I’m gonna start college in three weeks. As I’m
throwing away freshmen, sophomore, junior, and senior homework, I’m getting
that nostalgic feeling… and the satisfaction that I’ll never have to take
TRIG/PRECAL EVER AGAIN. Goodbye stupid notes.
Summer’s
been treating me well. I have money in my pocket now that I’m done with my
summer job at City Hall. Red Cross SPUs at Boomers and the pool party were
really fun. LEO SPUs at Six Flags was the shit. I’m really missing Goliath
right now hahah. I think I’m gonna miss LEO even more though. But time moves
on. I was talking to my friend Katherine about how she’s in Alpha Phi Omega at
UCSD; it’s a service/co-ed fraternity organization and Long Beach has one too so I might join it.
I’m on the
waiting list for dorming at Long Beach,
by the way. In case I don’t get it, I went to this off-campus housing fair a
few weeks ago. It didn’t impress me very much but whatever. But I did get a
surprise there when I saw Amanda Chao. I haven’t really talked to her in a long
while so it was nice to sorta catch up. I didn’t even know she was considering
CSULB. According to her, chances are she won’t be going to Long Beach cuz her dad wants her to go to PCC
to save him money. SHEESH. But anyway, I drove her home to save a friend of
hers the trouble to come down and get her. Some of the things we briefly talked
about made me open my eyes that day. I traveled back in time and I was sure
glad that its future was not my reality.
Well,
before summer ends and I do all the college stuff, I have a list of people to
hang with. Time is limited too since I take my wisdom teeth out on the 24th!
GAH. It takes me a week to heal. But yeah, if anybody wants to hang out for old
time’s sake, leave a message. Or you can find me on Facebook, lol. Farewell to
anybody who still reads Xanga pages.
A Tribe Called Quest. Jazz/Rap genre. EXCELLENT music. It has to do with lots of lovin' and it ain't nuthin' nice.
This
upcoming week is gonna be crazy as hell. Let’s look at the schedule:
June 9 –
Last Dance June 10 –
LA River Ride June 11 –
Senior Honors Night (supporting good people) June 12 –
Senior Luncheon @ Dave & Buster June 13 –
Pick up cap & gown + Grad Nite @ Disneyland June 14 – Pre-Wedding
Family Dinner June 15 –
Graduation Rehearsal + Graduation June 16 –
Sister’s wedding June 17 –
Father’s Day June 18 –
First day of summer job
I don’t
want to sound ridiculously sentimental but wow, it’s finally here: the week we
graduate. Along with it is other family stuff coming up. When will I sleep?
Well, as the realization that the “next chapter of our lives will begin on June 16”
slowly sets in, I shall enjoy, cherish, and love every moment. I'll try to go
crazy and don’t hold back. Let it all out. Party like I just don’t care. Be a
high school kid. Except for the ditching part.
"Waiting to read a yearbook entry is like waiting to open a Christmas present." --Shelly Tat
